Dax Lemos

it's been 36 weeks since my last post

2007-10-13T06:04:17Z

Well i really stopped writing in here cause i didn't think i had time to write anymore. My life just keeps spinning out of control sometimes and i know how to fix it, i just really don't want to right now. I don't know why, maybe it's the thought of loosing all the friends i've been trying so hard not to lose, cause i blow people off. A LOT. it's not ur fault, i'm a ass. I know i am, i've been trying to fix that. I don't want to make excuses for all the things i've done. I've f-d up with alot of people and for that i'm sorry. Things will get better soon, I'll have some money again and i can start saving for the future, and the next 'heartbreaking skank' that comes into my life. skank is a harsh word, but i love my women dirty, i can't help it. SAVE ME!

a year

2007-02-02T06:41:18Z

It's been one of those years where the universe collapses on it's self and rebuilds too much to say and time is precious.

A HA!

2006-04-03T23:45:57Z

I know what the problem is..... news at 11!

gdaxlemos @ 2006-02-28T02:12:00

2006-02-28T07:14:43Z

MOOOOOOOOOOOO...... yes i bought rent.... so what..... wanna fight about it? Seriously all i do is play EQOA:F and that's about it. Work blows. Alot of people blow. and that's it ;-) catcha later

Blah

2005-12-31T06:57:26Z

So i started this "race towards alcoholism" in Myspace....... Damn addictions.......

Read Bulletin

From: Gus

Date: Dec 25, 2005 3:15 AM
Subject: The 1st Annual Race To Alcoholism
Body: Well as of thursday i've been drunk every night of the week off tequila...... Not just any tequila it's all been Cuervo...... So I just bought a shit load of cuervo and game myself a mission statement.....
Be drunk ....
every night.....
for as long as possible......

Everyone pick your poison and join along.... I'm on night 3 and F-d up!
Name: Poison
Gus - Jose Cuervo

Well it's saturday morning and i'm still going...... It's really not a bad thing.... I started everything all late..... we've got like 5 people passed out in the living room..... The world can't keep up. BTW Tequila goes down like water..... but I get....... you know :-) I need a woman..... Fill out the application:

Name:___________________
Age:____________________
Phone #:________________
Do You wanna smoke later?: Yes or No

That's pretty much it.........

GO MYSPACE! http://www.myspace.com/gdaxlemos

gdaxlemos @ 2005-12-23T02:00:00

2005-12-23T07:00:28Z

Bowser
You scored 40% Marioness, 35% Warioness, 12% Peachness, and 41% Bowserness!

GRA HA HA HA HAR! You are Bowser, BOWSER! Remorseless King of Evil! You
are driven by passion, violence, a love of establishing order and grand
systems with which to impose your tyrannical will on the masses and a
desire to win the heart of the one you love, Princess Peach. You have
an insatiable lust for power and love, and an incredible talent for one
liners. You also have a nasty habit of being the loser in every video
game you've ever been in. Take heart and fight the good fight. One day
Mario will fall before your awesome might.

My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:

You scored higher than 14% on Marioness
You scored higher than 89% on Warioness
You scored higher than 0% on Peachness
You scored higher than 89% on Bowserness

Link: The Mario Character (Revised) Test written by CMEREQT on Ok Cupid, home of the 32-Type Dating Test

gdaxlemos @ 2005-12-16T03:22:00

2005-12-16T08:23:38Z

P.S. Sevendust is my hero!!!!

Home

2005-12-16T08:22:20Z

Where is home for everyone else? somewhere where you want to be all the time right? I need a new home.... It's not like my lease is running out or anything. Just need a new scenery. New zip code and new address to memorize.... maybe i don't need a new home. I can't complain about living here. Great friends, great times, just no time for anyone else. This is why i've fallen apart really. Beside a job that makes me crazy and really no future plans besides maybe going to pharmacy school..... I really need more time to myself..... I used to have so much more. DAMN Growing UP.

Mission Completed :

2005-12-01T00:33:17Z

Well another task completed. TO Completely alienate everyone who was in my life. about 90% there. Yeah sad ain't it. But there is no hope. So fuck it!

p.s. AND SOME HOW EVERYONE FORGOT TO TELL ME SEVENDUST HAD A NEW FUCKING CD.... IT CAME OUT 2 MONTHS AGO..... DAMN I NEED TO WATCH THE NEWS OR SOMETHING..........

AND THESE PARTING WORDS:

GDaxLemos: see this is why we have guns to relieve stress
LokiRook: i think that is a stupid statement, but ok
GDaxLemos: i'm sorry that i'm a redneck
LokiRook: funny how you didnt grow up on a farm
LokiRook: or in the boonies
GDaxLemos: i know
LokiRook: or redneck country at all
GDaxLemos: i'm suburbian redneck

I think i need another.......

2005-11-25T07:55:02Z

I think i need another weapon of somekind.... practical and such not just for having it. and it's name is the 1911 colt government model 45 auto. I know way way way too much about guns..... damn u Borja. Anywho.... ate alot of food.... get to eat more later yey!

When Life .........

2005-11-23T07:19:47Z

What happened to falling asleep from being tired? now it's just exhaustion. I'm tired. I'm horny. and only the one's i can't have are the ones i want. It's basically always been that way. I know i have alot of issues with women, but i can give a hell of a massage, and if anything i can talk on the phone more than a girl. Ok well maybe i'm a little bit female....... Still think alyssa milano and charlize theron are the sexiest women on the planet! wooo hoo...... maybe i should stop watching E!. I have the new jade..... but she's unscoped and it's not fun to shoot it when i jam a f-ing round ABOVE the chamber. Pretty much all i do is eat sleep smoke work and shoot in that order. It's a sad exsistance but really now look at HeR
oh well going to bed alone...... Don't worry i'm used to it.

Hello

2005-09-27T00:06:19Z

Well it turns out our address has a block on the cable so again it's taking forever to get internet back.... miss you all.... so much shit that's happened and no time to write about it. ttfn

gdaxlemos @ 2005-08-08T19:05:00

2005-08-08T23:07:57Z

Ihave like a million entried on my computer but of course i'm not on it. Hello world....sorry for dissapearing.... It's hard when you have a fear ofjust picking up the phoneand calling people. I wish i couldmakeit up to everyone. Alas livingon my own rocks..... working blows....andwomen.....wellthey are just the enigma that seemto escape my grasp. I'll update soon as i getthe damn cable up andrunning.... yeah it's been 3 months.... so. I'm lazy

Moving

2005-05-27T17:26:34Z

Moving sux. I really don't wanna move all my stuff, but i'm on the lease so hooray. So now i have my own plac
e and live on my rulz, sleep when i wanna sleep do what i wanna do. aint growing up great. so if anyone wants to come over lets say in a week or so so i can progressivly move all my crap in. Call me! Well do lunch.

No Day But today

2005-05-16T02:26:00Z

I don't think this is over. Just for now i realize it's stupid for me to do anything for her but be a friend. That's it. I'm afraid that i might just go crazy again, but i don't want to. It's slow settling in. Things have changed. ALOT. I have my own life. she has hers and if she needs a friend i'll be here. I'm insane i know. I'm sorry. On the plus side.... working 61 hours last week will mean hooray for this week!

Curveball

2005-05-13T07:43:33Z

It wasn't 2 night's ago i went searching for her again. Why i don't know. Cause I felt compelled to find her . To see her name again. But this time different. And now this. I don't want to think about it, but it's just wow. It's wow cause my life is just so screwed up right now. I want to be a pharmacist. Ithink its the hand i 've been delt. I love spades! random. But it's so tragic for her, her life has taken a hit that i can't compare with. I wish i could do something. Not come back storming in. I just want to see her from far away. maybe . No No i don't what am i saying..... That' not right. it's a bad idea and i shouldn't even think that way. Past is past and now is now. And now my life is so screwed up that the past keeps coming up and bashing me in the head. But..... No one comment on this please. cause this is just my internal monologue. I don't want to upset, scare, persuade, hurt, injure anyone so please just let this one go

:-(

2005-05-06T02:23:14Z

I'm so gonna be alone 4ever..... what it's true :-( wahhh! :'(

7Dust Replaced

2005-04-29T23:58:13Z

7dust...; i'm sorry everyone.... They've fallen down... without clint.... i can't listen to em, well at least until there new cd comes out.... but The previous #2 korn isn't the winner of my favorite band running.... the new winner out of the dark. MUDVAYNE. OMFG!!!!! ok some of you may scoff at that, but lets see.... 4 guys .... drummer... who's pretty goood and plays double bass like a beast..... just 1 guitar.... and he sounds like 2 or 3 guitars playing.... The singer.... WHo can yell all day and all night... and still sing melodically.... and THE BEST BASS PLAYER EVER! ok when you can counter melody, harmonize and chord on a bass all at the same time..... yeah Flea... i'm sorry you're out. :-D i'm happy again yey!

Look at me, my depth perception must be off again

2005-04-26T15:18:28Z

Look at me, my depth perception must be off again
Cause this hurts deeper than I thought it did
It has not healed with time
It just shot down my spine
You look so beautiful tonight
Reminds me how you laid us down
And gently smiled before you destroyed my life

Would you find it in your heart
To make this go away
And let me rest in pieces
(let me rest in pieces)
Would you find it in your heart
To make this go away
And let me rest in pieces
(let me rest in pieces)
Pieces

Look at me, my depth perception must be off again
You got much closer than I thought you did
I am in your reach
You held me in your hands

Would you find it in your heart
To make this go away
And let me rest in pieces
(let me rest in pieces)
Would you find it in your heart
To make it go away
And let me rest in pieces
(let me rest in pieces)

Would you find it in your heart
To make this go away
And let me rest in pieces
(let me rest in pieces)
Would you find it in your heart
(find it in your heart)
And let me rest in pieces
(let me rest in pieces)

Thanks Alisha......Yeah i'm gonna be single forever.... I know.

Me 23

2005-04-25T04:53:07Z

Well it sux..... I'm 23.... I'm so old. Man i need to invent a time machine.... but i don't have that much motivation to do it. I just got home from a day of just pounding my brain to bits. SO much food! My friends love me.... it's great. Sorry i couldn't make time to spend with all of yall, but i didn't wake up till 4 so it's a day well spent. Someone needs to help me with my female problem. i don't know what to do? I could be all like direct and stuff, but it's not me to do that. I could be creepy stalkery.... well i'm a little of that now..... HELP!..... ugh i hate food. SO much cake..... I need money like right now..... damn bills taking away from my fun! Anywhoo someoone get back to me on that please and DAMN IT Ii'm 23..... why god why! !!! we had a deal!!!

And if you havn't heard the song 23 yet get it.....

OH i know you're reading this...... hehehehe!

Damn It

2005-04-21T05:53:48Z

Damn it i miss her.... this sux

4 days

2005-04-20T08:30:54Z

It's hard getting old. I'm like 23 almost.... Why god why! we had a deal.... to steal a quote. I really wish the whole dating scheme wasn't so damn complicated. Not to worry though..... I'm still gonna be as crazy as ever. I see no point in the change. I don't want to be 23 but it's a matter of quantum physics and temporal theory to make things go backwards in time. Wbat really is wrong with me is the whole girl void created from the army-giant blackhole of my life. Man to have the last 5 years back, well how bout the last month. Man i wish i could be stuck in a loop like in groundhogs day..... I thought it'd be awesome.... some don't agree. anywho. It's like 4:30.

P.S. I am such a woman.

P.P.S. Was there a coherent sentance in all that? i don't think so

Test test crazy crazy tests.... y'all

2005-04-18T16:00:37Z

Your Linguistic Profile:

60% General American English

25% Yankee

15% Dixie

0% Midwestern

0% Upper Midwestern

What Kind of American English Do You Speak?

New Month's Resolution

2005-04-15T04:15:35Z

I think i'm gonna put my foot down and make a resolution.... Starting next week i'm gonna start working out again, start saving money.... and just move. I've done what i can' for the residents of Montgomery County, I want to see what the rest of this gay ass country has to offer. and Get 30 round mags for my m4. This really isn't new news, I've been wanting to get out 4 a while, but really only had some mental barriers that i couldn't break down. Alot of them are still up. But with david shipping out for the marines and my life just pretty much melting into nothingness. Nothing to gain or lose. we'll see .....again.....

Bah

2005-04-13T04:19:04Z

Is everyone getting some but me? Really It's True!